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Great stuff. This in particular touched me deeply:
"When I was at a very tender age, 15 or so, I met a young gentleman who impressed me a lot. I felt a growing fierce affection for him and it developed into a deep love. When I realized his feelings were not as strong, just a passing fancy, definitely not what I’d dreamt for...it shattered my life. I glimpsed at my watch
and it was stuck. To overcome this shock I said my watch was stuck. That moment my whole world came to a halt. My life was over in an instant. I stayed away from great feeling for the rest of my life. No one knew anything. I fought it out, but the price was terrible. It cost me my life."